I vowed to fight my Jewish enemy believing that I was doing God's will on earth, and was true to my word as I participated in many riots against the Israeli army, nothing could change my heart, I could only die or a miracle needed to happen. The simplest way to describe myself is that I was one of those whom one would view on CNN throwing rocks and molotov cocktails in the days of the Intifada or 'The Uprising', I was one of these who Jews would call a terrorist, the interesting thing is that I was not only terrorising but I was terrorised by my beliefs, since I had to gain enough merit and good deeds to go to heaven but never was sure if my good deeds would outweigh my bad deeds in the scale when I get judged by God, of course to die fighting the Jews will ease Allah's anger towards my sin and I will be secured in a good spot in heaven with beautiful wide eyed women to fulfil my most intimate desires, either way I will win, and terror was the only way.

I remember students used to ask the teacher during our Islamic studies in Bethlehem High school, if it was permitted for Muslims to rape the Jewish women after we defeat them, his response was "The women captured in battle have no choice in this matter, they are concubines and they need to obey their masters, having sex with slave captives is not a "matter of choice for slaves.", this in fact was written in the Koran, for it says:

"Forbidden to you also are married women, except those who are in your hand as slaves, this is the law of Allah for you." -- Sure: The Women (al-Nisa, verse 20)

And in a different verse the Koran says:

"O prophet; we allowed thee thy wives to whom thou hast paid their dowries, and the slaves whom thy right hand possesseth out of the booty which Allah hath granted thee, and the daughters of thy uncle, and of thy maternal aunt, who fled with thee to Medina, and any believing woman who hath given herself up to the prophet, if the prophet desired to wed her, a privilege to thee above the rest of the faithful". -- Sure: Confederates (al-Ahzab verse 50)

We had no problem with Mohammed taking advantage of this privilege as he married 14 wives for himself and several slave girls from the booty he collected as a result of his victorious battles, we really never knew how many wives he had and that question was always a debatable issue to us, one of these wives was taken from his own adopted son 'Zaid', as Allah declared that she was given to the prophet, others were Jewish captives forced into slavery after Mohammed beheaded their husbands and families.

My mother on the other hand tried to teach me a different idea at home she called God's plan, she spoke to me about Bible prophecy, she said that the return of the Jews was pre-planned by God and was fulfilled. She also told me about many future events to be fulfilled in our generation which is surfacing every day now, she told me of false Messiahs and counterfeits; but all that had little effect, for my heart was set on fighting against the Jews.

My mother was influenced by an American Missionary couple, who she asked secretly to baptise her, and when she refused to be baptised in a pond full of green algae the missionary priest had to plead to the YMCA in Jerusalem to clear the pool from men, and my mother was baptised, no one knew from our family.

Many times my mother would take me on trips to several museums in Israel, and I fell in love with archaeology, and was fascinated with it, in many arguments with her I would bluntly tell her that the Jews and Christians corrupted the Bible, she responded by taking me to the scroll museum in Jerusalem and showed me the scroll of Isaiah, still intact but there was no one taking pictures of any Bible errors to prove of any corruption and I could not respond to my mother.

I remember when I still tormented my mother by calling her an "infidel" and a damned American Imperialist who claimed that Jesus is the Son of God. I'd show her the pictures in the news paper of all the teenagers supposedly martyred as a result of violence demanding her for answers, I hated her and always asked my father to divorce her and re-marry a good Muslim woman.

My parents worried a lot about me as I got thrown in prison by the Israeli Army, my mother went to the American Council in Jerusalem to try to get me out, she was so stressed her hair started to fall, in jail I learned more about the art of terrorism and when I got out I was more fanatic than before.

When I graduated from high school they sent me to the United States to seek a higher education, and of course I got involved with many anti-Israeli social and political events. I still remember my favourite sick joke I used to like to tell my friends, that I hated Hitler very much because he never got the job done, that is: he never finished the Jewish problem "once and for all".

With Hitler being my idol, and Mohammed my prophet, I went on with my life with little regard for Jews, Christians, or anyone who was not a Muslim. I believed that one day the whole World will submit to Islam, this is what Muslims teach, they also teach that Mohammed is our only redeemer and God's favoured prophet.

I'll be honest; All my life I was terrified every time I read the Koran, as after every other verse is always the threats of hell fire for this sin and that, I always wondered about my destiny, lost in my fears and doubts, I really hated the idea of killing for my salvation.

Sometime in 1992 I was fascinated when I read a book titled "Armageddon, Appointment With Destiny", by Grant Jeffrey. Some of the things explained in This book had many detailed prophecies about Jesus: his birth, life, death and resurrection; and the re-creation of the state of Israel. Many of these prophecies came to pass just as God put them down in the Bible! What also amazed me, is to find out that the chances for a man to predict hundreds of historic events written hundreds and thousands of years before their occurrences are one in zillions... what is more fascinating is that the margin of error had to be zero, especially when the fulfilment of many of these prophecies are happening in my generation.

The struggle began, I was puzzled, how could the Bible be a fake and corrupted by the Jews if the land I grew in spoke and cried out, as thousands of pieces of archaeological evidence surfaced from the land of Israel, confirming the Bible, and the book of Isaiah was discovered in the Qumran caves was by a Muslim next town from Bethlehem by the name of (Muhammad Deib), he was looking for a lost sheep, from that discovery they found the rest of the Old Testament which confirming the Old Testament Bible in our hands today with hundreds of verses predicting the coming of Jesus Christ.

I had to read the Bible to know who Jesus really is to find out for myself, and God finally led me to get to the bottom line, I started reading what Jesus said:

"I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end, who was and is to come, the Almighty". Revelation 1:8

Christ also said to the Jews:

“Truly, truly I say to you; before Abraham was born I AM (God).” John 8:58

It amazed me to find similar claims between Jesus and Mohammed. These claims were serious, as Mohammed said:

"I am the beginning of all creation and the last prophet",

he also said:

"I was a prophet of Allah while Adam was still being moulded in clay",

and moreover he claimed to be the intercessor for Muslims in the day of judgement, by all of these claiming to be the World's last and final prophet and saviour.

These things always puzzled me. If Mohammed claimed all what he claimed than who was Jesus who claimed to be our redeemer and saviour, that question troubled me a great deal, one of the two claims had to be a lie, if their was two redeemers this would be association with God since God is the only redeemer.

Christ or Mohammed had to be the redeemer and intercessor for mankind, the Bible or the Koran had to be correct. I realised that the death of that Muslim prophet was different than the death of Jesus, as Mohammed died on his favourite wife's lap "Aisha" while Jesus died on the cross in order to redeem man's sins.

Vowing to make a decision for "The Truth", I stayed up late many nights comparing many details between the Koran and the Bible, at some point during my study I prayed saying: "GOD, you are the creator of heaven and earth, the God of Abraham, Moses, and Jacob, you are the beginning and the end, you are 'The Truth', 'the only Truth', the maker of the true scripture, the one and only word of God. I suffer to find your truth, I want to do your will in my life, I long for your love and in the name of 'The Truth' I ask. AMEN!!!"

It was astonishing to me to find that Muslims and the rest of the World recognises three main religions that worship God, even though God said that He is One and his Word is One.

I was blind, but with the Bible only I began to see, I mean really SEE !!!, with so much Biblical prophecy fulfilled, showing the return of Israel from the grave. The Lord began to show me the satanic influences which affected my way of thinking regardless of my Islamic background which I used to think were from God.

I also learned that Jesus, the man from my hometown 'Beth-Lechem', which means 'Home of the Bread', as he said:

'I am the Bread of Life, he who comes to me shall never hunger, and he who believes in me shall never thirst' -- John 6:35.

The Truth was in front of my very eyes, knocking constantly on my heart, and wanting to come in. I called on The Truth and He answered, I was blind and sought the truth, and now I see, He knocked on my door and I opened, and now he had set me free! Christ said :

"I am The Way, The Truth and The Life, no one comes to the Father except through Me". -- John 14:6

My way of thinking, my feelings, and my goals in life began to change, knowing the truth transferred my way of thinking from believing in Hitler to believing in Christ, from believing lies to knowing the truth, from being spiritually sick to being healed, from living in darkness to seeing the light, from being damned to being saved, from doubt to faith, from hate to love, and from evil works to God's grace through Christ. This transformation taught me that without the (true) word of God things could look good on the surface but in the core lays deception. I accepted Jesus the Messiah, as my Lord and Saviour, who died for all of our sins; to him I submit.

Jesus said:

"Come to me all you labour, and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." -- Matthew 11:28

Thank you Lord Jesus for fulfilling your promise.